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Entry 40

When I got the news I was having a girl with my first wife I was a total wreck. We were young and neither of us had spent much time with children as we were both only children.

My wife was very excited and couldn't wait to get clothes, a bed, toys, decorating the room...you know the works. She couldn't wait to dress her up in dresses and put ribbons in her hair.  

I was just getting started as a husband and provider then and had no idea what to do. So I listened and read up just as much as she did on babies, complications, how they communicated, and then I reread them. God only knows how many nights I fell asleep on the couch under the light of a lamp.  

When she came..my sweet little girl...everything I read went out the window. I was a Dad..we had a child. I learned quickly that full nights of sleep were a thing of the past. My wife didn't just need me to love her she needed me to listen and help all hours of the night. Some people who I haven't met in person say that babies sleep great once they get used to being home. Well I don't believe them for one second. We never slept more than a twenty minute stretch for the first three months.

I was just an apprentice at the Coroner's office and that didn't leave me a lot of time to rest either. I had to pay attention and do pretty much what ever I was asked no matter what. There was nobody for me to fall back on if I messed up. What a time I had!

Now as I get ready to go through this all again. My life has come full circle. Can I be what Sarah needs? Will I love them as much as I did my old family? God please give me the strength to be better than before.

Entry 40 (2010-08-30) — Copyright ©2001-2017 Richard Shane Reinert.

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